Where do I begin today? I want to write about so many things...my American dream, my friends and the dilemma of trying to do things my way! Well about my American dream... it began about five to six years ago, on the roof top of my dental school dorm in India. It began out of the spirit of rebellion against the system which put so many restrictions and did not let us be! Little did we know what that dream entailed.... When I think of its inception I can't but laugh at our naivety. Ah the follies of a young heart! America did bring out the best and worst in me, it brought me out of the wonderland I was in. I before I banter on about what all it taught me about relationships I will put a stop to it. (Will come back to it someday, when i'm not so disappointed in them.) Well wanting to get into a dental school here in US has been what I have been pursing blindly for the last two and a half years now, along with that juggling a MBA! And when its the third time you get into a great school and still aren't sure if you will be there this summer it is like..........well a very rude joke!
I can't help but laugh....and in case you are wondering why am I laughing? I'm laughing at my helplessness and the irony of the situation. In India I used to think, I can make anything happen and once I get to Umrika there will be nothing holding me back. (yes yes .....)
Sometimes I wonder if my wanting this is so bad is unreasonable! Self doubt is a dangerous thing .... it grows on you like a virus...I'm trying to stay away from it as much as possible!
Oh well third time is a charm... let it be for me as well!
About my friends...well I don't really know why people behave the way they do! More on that later....
