Life is about making choices!

The answer to my last blog is .......... NO YOU CAN'T!! Moving on from there... I made a very hard choice today... believe me, hard not because I could be wrong about what I chose and I would have to live with the choice I made for the rest of my life, but because I will always live with the sense of loss for not choosing what could have been mine, of not knowing what would it have been like!! (WOW what a long sentence, but ya that speaks for the confusion in my head) Just why am I doing this? Well I can give you plenty of reasons make a zillion excuses but plain simple truth is FEAR.. fear of what if the things do not turn out the way I picture them to be, fear of what if I'm not the only one but just an alternative to the other not so good ones, or just a convenient option? Maybe my fears are baseless, but I'm a coward! Or I'm way strict with my self and I do not give myself the luxury of indulgence. Hahaha sounds too fancy, does it not?? Lets keep it simple... I'm a coward.
But yeah I will always wonder what would it have been like?

Can you get rid of your guardian angel?

Just a rhetorical question........ Well m back after like forever, n I dunno what possessed me to blog again.. Not that I have anything against it, just that I feel exposed or unzipped (you would know what m talking about if you read my first blog).... I just don't know how much to let on... and how much to keep to myself....what parts to stress on and well you know.......Back to why I'm here .... the question that has been bugging me... Can you get rid of your guardian angel? Jeez now m going to throw another one at you..( a question of course, just what were you thinking?? ) Is there even some some thing like a guardian angel or is it a effigy created by the this vulnerable hominid too strange for the path carved out for him?? The guardian angel does spice up things a tad bit and adds tons of drama!! ( Believe me on this one I have it on good authority ). So back to the question once more...( I'm unusually distracted today and a bit crabby, what would you expect at 4.30 in the morning and no I did not just wake up..... bear with me) I would like to know the answer fo so.......
Between, now that she ( guardian angel I mean ) is out of work officially ( times are bad I know but she wouldn't have complained even if she had to work without the compensation, ah for the want of asking )what does she do?
Not that she has much options...

She was there even before he knew she existed,
She would be there even after he let her go.